"What" and "if" are two words as non-threatening as words can be. But put them together side by side and they have the power to haunt you for the rest of your life. On this journey of grief it is easy to get lost, in yourself, in your surroundings, in your mind. I find myself… Continue reading What If
June marks the beginning of SANDS awareness month. #findingthewords This year's campaign is all about breaking the silence and helping people talk about their loss. Ive always been lucky and ive got a great support circle who can talk about Jason with me, even sometimes bringing it up themselves to start the conversation however I… Continue reading SANDS Awareness Month
A question I've asked myself for as long as I can remember. I'm no saint but im definitely not a bad person. Ive always lived my life trying to please everyone and trying to make people happy and yet I still ask. As a kid I was bullied throughout school, it still haunts me now.… Continue reading Do I deserve this?
Please welcome Pete to Somewhere After The Rainbow. Pete is a wonderful dad to Poppy and Reuben and he bloga over at Daddy To A Rainbow And A Star Joy and sadness forever mixed together. When you become a parent you never think you’ll have to parent a child after the loss of another child. Sadly… Continue reading Pete’s Story
Ugh. I thought we were over the sleep regression stage but it seems we are back to no routine and random waking up. As you may know Ellie doesn't sleep great. She slept through from about 9 months to 12 months and since then wakes regularly unless she is in our bed. I was always… Continue reading Sleep Regression
Please welcome Rachael to the Somewhere After The Rainbow Guest Series 💜 Rachael writes over at Rachael's Blog about life and parenting after loss. The best gift to your baby is a happy and whole you. Eli 💙 I seemed to just sail through my first pregnancy. No real issues or cause for concern. Our house was… Continue reading Rachael’s Story
Usually when someone dies their memory lives on in stories, in their family and their friends memories. Their name is still spoken, maybe less than before but it is socially acceptable to talk about them because they lived. So why is it still socially unacceptable to speak the names of babies/children who have died? Society… Continue reading Say Their Name
28th April 2015 Our final goodbyes. I don't know how we got to that day, the month after Jason's birthday seemed like a whirlwind and not for the reasons we wanted it to be. Looking back I realise that we didn't know how to plan Jason's funeral and there was no-one to really offer any… Continue reading Saying Goodbye.
Once Ellie started walking more I knew it wouldn't be long before we needed some reins to give her a bit more independence but also that we could have our hand on her at all times and she doesn't wander off. I felt completely out of my depths looking as there are so many different… Continue reading Trespass Ladybird Reins Backpack
Wow. I can't get my head around the fact that Ellie has been with us for this long. It feels so strange as I can't remember a life without her in it yet of cause I still dream of a life with Jason too. I thought as so much has been going on and I'd… Continue reading 16 months.