Tomorrow we travel to North Wales for our family holiday, we are all packed up and the car has had its check. I have spent all week feeling giddy at gettinf away and feeling the sand between my toes. Ive felt excited at taking Ellie to spend the week in a caravan and make memories… Continue reading Holidays After Loss
Today did not go the way it should have. Today should have been a normal day, work and then a quick shopping trip to Tesco to stock up on food for our holiday. None of that happened due to a trip to A&E instead. As we were leaving this morning Ellie had tripped over my… Continue reading An unexpected trip
This year the NHS turns 70. For anyone not in the UK the NHS is our free healthcare service and is such a lifeline to so many people. I must admit I am quite a careful person so have never had to use A&E or the hospital as a child. Of cause we visited the… Continue reading Thank You NHS
I have finally given in our interest form to put Ellie's name down for nursery. I found it such a stressful task, I have said from the start I wanted Ellie to attend the nursery linked to the primary school I work at mainly because the staff are amazing, I know them and I know… Continue reading Nursery
I decided to sit in the car tonight while hubby had his counselling session because its another beautiful day and a chance to sit alone with my thoughts. Hope house held a memorial today for babies gone too soon and it saddens me that I couldn't make it due to work and also that I… Continue reading Alone with my thoughts.
Sunday 17th June 2018 is Fathers Day in the UK. A day I've always celebrated as my own dad isn't one for emotions like me so I like to make an extra effort to spend time with him on Fathers Day. The first Father's Day after losing Jason, Fathers Day was boycotted, it hurt my… Continue reading Fathers Hurt Too
"What" and "if" are two words as non-threatening as words can be. But put them together side by side and they have the power to haunt you for the rest of your life. On this journey of grief it is easy to get lost, in yourself, in your surroundings, in your mind. I find myself… Continue reading What If
June marks the beginning of SANDS awareness month. #findingthewords This year's campaign is all about breaking the silence and helping people talk about their loss. Ive always been lucky and ive got a great support circle who can talk about Jason with me, even sometimes bringing it up themselves to start the conversation however I… Continue reading SANDS Awareness Month
A question I've asked myself for as long as I can remember. I'm no saint but im definitely not a bad person. Ive always lived my life trying to please everyone and trying to make people happy and yet I still ask. As a kid I was bullied throughout school, it still haunts me now.… Continue reading Do I deserve this?
Please welcome Pete to Somewhere After The Rainbow. Pete is a wonderful dad to Poppy and Reuben and he bloga over at Daddy To A Rainbow And A Star Joy and sadness forever mixed together. When you become a parent you never think you’ll have to parent a child after the loss of another child. Sadly… Continue reading Pete’s Story