Seven years since I last held you.Seven years since I saw those tiny little hands.Seven years since I had to say Goodbye.Seven years of missing you.Seven years of hurting.Seven years of what ifs.Seven years of why me.I can't imagine our lives with a 7 year old. I guess that's what hurts the most; that we… Continue reading Seven
Category: Jason
Empty Door
Our door remains empty, on the first day of school.No awkward photographs.No fussing over a clean uniform.The first day of school but you are missing. The first day of school. Jason should be starting Reception this year. I should be rushing around buying his new shoes, the uniform I had forgotten about and preparing him… Continue reading Empty Door
Primary School Offer Day
In an ideal world I'd have been one of those nervous parents waiting to find out what school my boy had gotten in to. In an ideal world he'd have been accepted to the primary school where I work! In an ideal world I'd already have his uniform, or parts of it in preparation and… Continue reading Primary School Offer Day
Always One Missing
Wow, as always, the final few days of March were horrendous. I have said for a while now that for me, the build up to an anniversary is always harder than the day. This has been the case for all of Jason's birthdays. I find the days leading to his birth/death hit me far harder… Continue reading Always One Missing
27th March
I can't help but wonder whether that day was when everything started going wrong. Illness had struck, I worked in a nursery at the time and the sickness bug had hit the kids. The day I was due to finish for my maternity I ended up having off as I was being sick and I… Continue reading 27th March
Mothering A Rainbow 