Jason Phillips 💙 You are in my thoughts every hour of every day. I wish I remembered what it felt like holding you, I wish I remembered what you smelt like. I wish I knew what colour eyes you had or whether you had any birth marks. I wish I had taken more pictures, I… Continue reading Dear Jason
Wow what a whirlwind week of emotions it has been. It has been amazing to see so many people raising awareness as much as they possibly can, especially when some of those people are ones who have supported me and welcomed me talking about Jason. This week there has been so much discussion around baby… Continue reading BLAW 2018
This week is PAL Awareness week and i have been taking part in their instagram photo challenge via my personal account. Although I have found it comforting doing something that links both my babies it has made me think so much about how little I knew about pregnancy after loss, I was extremely naive. Right… Continue reading PAL Awareness
I've been quiet the past few weeks, not only with my blog but also on my personal instagram account. I've not quite known the words to write or what pictures to take. I have found this pregnancy to be the hardest since hitting 35 weeks and passing the week where Jason was born. I'm now… Continue reading Life is not a fairy tale…
Dear Jason, During my walk on Monday I saw you, you came to me as a Robin and sat on a bench where I stood. I tried to take a picture but you obviously didn't want me to as you flew away once my phone was ready. I imagine you'd have been that mischievous if… Continue reading Dear Jason.
October is Down Syndrome Awareness Month and to me is pretty important. As you may know October is also Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month and for me, both go hand in hand. Last night a documentary was shown on BBC Two called A World Without Down Syndrome, a documentary that I'd been dying to… Continue reading A World Without Down Syndrome?
Wow. I'm not sure I completely understand how I've made it this far but I'm grateful I have. It's meant that with having two weeks of maternity leave I've been able to get the nursery finished, almost finished painting Bean's wooden drawers and washed all her clothes ready. I'm not used to being this organised… Continue reading Week Two.
I feel like i'm starting all over again but this time is slightly different. It's been exactly one week since starting my maternity leave and i'm now waiting for Bean to arrive. This week has been full of so many different emotions that I think the only way I can figure them out is by… Continue reading Week One.
Well I made it through the entire weekend without any hiccups. To some this is a very small victory but for me this has been weighing on my mind for a while now. If anyone read my last post, you already know that Jason was born just 2 days after starting my maternity leave. The… Continue reading I did it!
Recently i've been feeling like this pregnancy is so similar to Jason's pregnancy. As the weeks have gone on I'm finding more and more similarities. Tomorrow is my last day of work before my Maternity Leave starts, I can't quite believe i've made it this far. I am finishing earlier than last time. When I… Continue reading Mirrored Image.