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Always One Missing

Wow, as always, the final few days of March were horrendous. I have said for a while now that for me, the build up to an anniversary is always harder than the day. This has been the case for all of Jason's birthdays. I find the days leading to his birth/death hit me far harder… Continue reading Always One Missing

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27th March

I can't help but wonder whether that day was when everything started going wrong. Illness had struck, I worked in a nursery at the time and the sickness bug had hit the kids. The day I was due to finish for my maternity I ended up having off as I was being sick and I… Continue reading 27th March

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Dear Jason

Jason Phillips ๐Ÿ’™ You are in my thoughts every hour of every day. I wish I remembered what it felt like holding you, I wish I remembered what you smelt like. I wish I knew what colour eyes you had or whether you had any birth marks. I wish I had taken more pictures, I… Continue reading Dear Jason

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BLAW 2018

Wow what a whirlwind week of emotions it has been. It has been amazing to see so many people raising awareness as much as they possibly can, especially when some of those people are ones who have supported me and welcomed me talking about Jason. This week there has been so much discussion around baby… Continue reading BLAW 2018

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PAL Awareness

This week is PAL Awareness week and i have been taking part in their instagram photo challenge via my personal account. Although I have found it comforting doing something that links both my babies it has made me think so much about how little I knew about pregnancy after loss, I was extremely naive.  Right… Continue reading PAL Awareness

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Life is not a fairy tale…

I've been quiet the past few weeks, not only with my blog but also on my personal instagram account. I've not quite known the words to write or what pictures to take. I have found this pregnancy to be the hardest since hitting 35 weeks and passing the week where Jason was born. I'm now… Continue reading Life is not a fairy tale…

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Miles In Memory Update:

As of 15th October Team Jason has walked or cycled at least 340 miles and we are still going strong! Well everyone except me (I'm struggling with getting a mile in at the moment!) We have managed to raise ยฃ225 for Aching Arms which is equal to 22 and a half Aching Arms bear! I… Continue reading Miles In Memory Update:

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Dear Jason.

Dear Jason, During my walk on Monday I saw you, you came to me as a Robin and sat on a bench where I stood. I tried to take a picture but you obviously didn't want me to as you flew away once my phone was ready. I imagine you'd have been that mischievous if… Continue reading Dear Jason.