"What" and "if" are two words as non-threatening as words can be. But put them together side by side and they have the power to haunt you for the rest of your life. On this journey of grief it is easy to get lost, in yourself, in your surroundings, in your mind. I find myself… Continue reading What If
A question I've asked myself for as long as I can remember. I'm no saint but im definitely not a bad person. Ive always lived my life trying to please everyone and trying to make people happy and yet I still ask. As a kid I was bullied throughout school, it still haunts me now.… Continue reading Do I deserve this?
·Chatty ·Clingy · Crying Chatty I have always been concerned that Ellies speech was delayed slightly. It took her a while to say mama or dada to the right person and she didnt really babble. I mentioned my concerns at Ellies health review at 15 months but HV was quite pleased with her speech she… Continue reading Surviving the three C’s
Please welcome Pete to Somewhere After The Rainbow. Pete is a wonderful dad to Poppy and Reuben and he bloga over at Daddy To A Rainbow And A Star Joy and sadness forever mixed together. When you become a parent you never think you’ll have to parent a child after the loss of another child. Sadly… Continue reading Pete’s Story
Ugh. I thought we were over the sleep regression stage but it seems we are back to no routine and random waking up. As you may know Ellie doesn't sleep great. She slept through from about 9 months to 12 months and since then wakes regularly unless she is in our bed. I was always… Continue reading Sleep Regression
Please welcome Rachael to the Somewhere After The Rainbow Guest Series 💜 Rachael writes over at Rachael's Blog about life and parenting after loss. The best gift to your baby is a happy and whole you. Eli 💙 I seemed to just sail through my first pregnancy. No real issues or cause for concern. Our house was… Continue reading Rachael’s Story
Lately I have been feeling like I am constantly juggling everything in one hand. Being a mum is wonderful and I have waited so long to hear my name shouted out but when your child is as clingy as mine is it all starts to get a bit much. Add that to working part time… Continue reading Juggling life.
Hello May! I'm not going to lie, March and April were tough months for me; so many anniversaries linked to Jason which brought mixed emotions. I feel that by grieving for Jason more than usual I havent been able to mother Ellie as well as I would have liked either. I've said it many times… Continue reading 18 months of Ellie.
A couple of weeks ago I joined up to take part in Pampers new campaign to test out some of their Nappy Pants. I literally jumped at the chance as since Ellie was born the only nappies that have suited her are Pampers. Pampers are trying to prove that their Nappy Pants aren't just for… Continue reading #WriggleWrestle
On Tuesday we took a drive out to Chester Zoo, it's just over an hours drive from Telford and we had pre-booked our tickets the night before. Tickets purchased online are actually cheaper than paying when you get there and can be purchased right up until 9:30 the morning you are planning your trip which… Continue reading Chester Zoo with a toddler.