Usually babies become attached to a specific item by the age of 1; I assumed as Ellie has never been bothered by teddies and hadnt grown attached to anything specific she wont feel the need to carry something around with her. Once again I am proven wrong and at 19 months she has decided her… Continue reading Teddies
This year the NHS turns 70. For anyone not in the UK the NHS is our free healthcare service and is such a lifeline to so many people. I must admit I am quite a careful person so have never had to use A&E or the hospital as a child. Of cause we visited the… Continue reading Thank You NHS
Oh My Strawberry Monkey... Strawberry Monkey finds himself in so some awful situations. We were lucky enough to win the first Strawberry Monkey book: " Strawberry Monkey Loves The Sun" in an instagram competition and from the first time we read it Ellie just loved it. She loves listening to the story and finding the… Continue reading Oh My Strawberry Monkey – Review (Gifted)
I have finally given in our interest form to put Ellie's name down for nursery. I found it such a stressful task, I have said from the start I wanted Ellie to attend the nursery linked to the primary school I work at mainly because the staff are amazing, I know them and I know… Continue reading Nursery
I decided to sit in the car tonight while hubby had his counselling session because its another beautiful day and a chance to sit alone with my thoughts. Hope house held a memorial today for babies gone too soon and it saddens me that I couldn't make it due to work and also that I… Continue reading Alone with my thoughts.
"What" and "if" are two words as non-threatening as words can be. But put them together side by side and they have the power to haunt you for the rest of your life. On this journey of grief it is easy to get lost, in yourself, in your surroundings, in your mind. I find myself… Continue reading What If
June marks the beginning of SANDS awareness month. #findingthewords This year's campaign is all about breaking the silence and helping people talk about their loss. Ive always been lucky and ive got a great support circle who can talk about Jason with me, even sometimes bringing it up themselves to start the conversation however I… Continue reading SANDS Awareness Month
A question I've asked myself for as long as I can remember. I'm no saint but im definitely not a bad person. Ive always lived my life trying to please everyone and trying to make people happy and yet I still ask. As a kid I was bullied throughout school, it still haunts me now.… Continue reading Do I deserve this?
·Chatty ·Clingy · Crying Chatty I have always been concerned that Ellies speech was delayed slightly. It took her a while to say mama or dada to the right person and she didnt really babble. I mentioned my concerns at Ellies health review at 15 months but HV was quite pleased with her speech she… Continue reading Surviving the three C’s
Ugh. I thought we were over the sleep regression stage but it seems we are back to no routine and random waking up. As you may know Ellie doesn't sleep great. She slept through from about 9 months to 12 months and since then wakes regularly unless she is in our bed. I was always… Continue reading Sleep Regression