Seven years since I last held you.Seven years since I saw those tiny little hands.Seven years since I had to say Goodbye.Seven years of missing you.Seven years of hurting.Seven years of what ifs.Seven years of why me.I can't imagine our lives with a 7 year old. I guess that's what hurts the most; that we… Continue reading Seven
For 5 years I have supported BLAW, or tried to. I have a habit of getting very overwhelmed with the things others do to raise awareness and end up feeling like I haven't done enough, like once again I've failed Jason for not doing "more" and I end up giving up and really only remembering… Continue reading Baby Loss Awareness Week 2020
One definition of Hope: to want something to happen or to be true, and usually have a good reason to think that it might 19th August in the baby loss community is A Day of Hope. A day to remember all those babies and children who died. A day where people are encouraged to break… Continue reading Day of Hope
In an ideal world I'd have been one of those nervous parents waiting to find out what school my boy had gotten in to. In an ideal world he'd have been accepted to the primary school where I work! In an ideal world I'd already have his uniform, or parts of it in preparation and… Continue reading Primary School Offer Day
Wow, as always, the final few days of March were horrendous. I have said for a while now that for me, the build up to an anniversary is always harder than the day. This has been the case for all of Jason's birthdays. I find the days leading to his birth/death hit me far harder… Continue reading Always One Missing
I have been a mummy for 3 years, 11 months and 15 days and I am learning something new every day.
Goodbye February, this month has been a mixed month. I started off feeling very low and depressed and finished the month off feeling grateful and full of love. As a family we have made so many memories and spent a whole week together having lots of fun. With the end of February comes March, a… Continue reading Goodbye February
Not a day goes by That I don't think of youI'm always asking why This crazy world had to loseSuch a ray of light we never knowGone too soon Whenever I use the laptop to do some blogging I always find myself listening to the same songs. Sad songs. Ones that make me think about… Continue reading Gone Too Soon
In exactly 77 days Jason would have been 4 years old and I have lived 1386 days without him. This seems bizarre as the day he was born I wasn't sure I was ever going to be able to live without him. I had spent 35 weeks awaiting his arrival, getting to know his little… Continue reading Crowdfunding
I am so incredibly honoured to share a post written by a wonderful Mummy to her two children. Lauren is one of the Mummy's I found over on IG who unfortunately is part of our baby loss community. Lauren reached out to me as she felt that sharing her story may help others who might find themselves in the same situation she did.
October is Elsie's month and to start off her celebrations here is her story ❤