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Primary School Offer Day

In an ideal world I'd have been one of those nervous parents waiting to find out what school my boy had gotten in to. In an ideal world he'd have been accepted to the primary school where I work! In an ideal world I'd already have his uniform, or parts of it in preparation and… Continue reading Primary School Offer Day

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Always One Missing

Wow, as always, the final few days of March were horrendous. I have said for a while now that for me, the build up to an anniversary is always harder than the day. This has been the case for all of Jason's birthdays. I find the days leading to his birth/death hit me far harder… Continue reading Always One Missing

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27th March

I can't help but wonder whether that day was when everything started going wrong. Illness had struck, I worked in a nursery at the time and the sickness bug had hit the kids. The day I was due to finish for my maternity I ended up having off as I was being sick and I… Continue reading 27th March

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Goodbye February

Goodbye February, this month has been a mixed month. I started off feeling very low and depressed and finished the month off feeling grateful and full of love. As a family we have made so many memories and spent a whole week together having lots of fun. With the end of February comes March, a… Continue reading Goodbye February

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Gone Too Soon

Not a day goes by That I don't think of youI'm always asking why This crazy world had to loseSuch a ray of light we never knowGone too soon Whenever I use the laptop to do some blogging I always find myself listening to the same songs. Sad songs. Ones that make me think about… Continue reading Gone Too Soon

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Saying Goodbye.

28th April 2015 Our final goodbyes. I don't know how we got to that day, the month after Jason's birthday seemed like a whirlwind and not for the reasons we wanted it to be.  Looking back I realise that we didn't know how to plan Jason's funeral and there was no-one to really offer any… Continue reading Saying Goodbye.

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First birthday

And just like that my second child is ONE! I'm not sure where the last year has gone to be honest with you. The past week has been even more hectic than usual and im finally starting to find my feet again and catch up on everything. I had planned to have written three blog… Continue reading First birthday

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7th October…

The first time we saw you. I'm the first to tell people I hate FaceBook. I created a new private account just so I could keep up with groups/pages I liked without being hit by unwanted posts or conversations with people. I have since reactivated my old fb account to plan Ellies 1st birthday and… Continue reading 7th October…

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October.

October is Down Syndrome Awareness Month and to me is pretty important. As you may know October is also Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month and for me, both go hand in hand. A year ago a documentary was shown on BBC Two called A World Without Down Syndrome, a documentary that I'd been dying… Continue reading October.