Seven years since I last held you.Seven years since I saw those tiny little hands.Seven years since I had to say Goodbye.Seven years of missing you.Seven years of hurting.Seven years of what ifs.Seven years of why me.I can't imagine our lives with a 7 year old. I guess that's what hurts the most; that we… Continue reading Seven
Tag: parenting after loss
Sleepover
Ellie went for her first ever sleepover last night. She has been asking to stay at both her grandparents houses for a little while and I knew we needed to let her. She packed everything she needed; pyjamas, clothes,hair brush, toothbrush, DVD player, night light, 2 teddies and she was ready. She also wanted to… Continue reading Sleepover
Father’s Day
First of all I want to wish all the fathers out there a happy fathers day. I have always known how lucky I am to have a Dad who has always put our family first; a dad who has always been my hero; a dad who taught me to be proud of myself; a dad… Continue reading Father’s Day
Water Baby
I remember taking Ellie swimming while on maternity leave and I clearly remember being in the water 5 minutes and having to get out because she HATED it! The moment her feet touched the water she would scream and cling to me, it didn't matter how much fun I made it look or what I… Continue reading Water Baby
Primary School Offer Day
In an ideal world I'd have been one of those nervous parents waiting to find out what school my boy had gotten in to. In an ideal world he'd have been accepted to the primary school where I work! In an ideal world I'd already have his uniform, or parts of it in preparation and… Continue reading Primary School Offer Day
27th March
I can't help but wonder whether that day was when everything started going wrong. Illness had struck, I worked in a nursery at the time and the sickness bug had hit the kids. The day I was due to finish for my maternity I ended up having off as I was being sick and I… Continue reading 27th March
Weekends
This weekend has been a tough one. The one before Jason's birthday. The one where we were meant to make some family memories. The one where Ellie had the most epic tantrum of all time. The one where Mummy cried far more than I would like to admit. The one where it all went tits… Continue reading Weekends
Being A Mummy
I have been a mummy for 3 years, 11 months and 15 days and I am learning something new every day.
Goodbye February
Goodbye February, this month has been a mixed month. I started off feeling very low and depressed and finished the month off feeling grateful and full of love. As a family we have made so many memories and spent a whole week together having lots of fun. With the end of February comes March, a… Continue reading Goodbye February
Positive Failure
A while back I shared the struggle I was having with myself. My mental health was taking a right beating and I was finding it hard getting it back to a healthy balance. It took a while and a complete breakdown for me to realise that I wasn't failing. I have spent days, weeks, months… Continue reading Positive Failure
Mothering A Rainbow 