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27th March

I can't help but wonder whether that day was when everything started going wrong. Illness had struck, I worked in a nursery at the time and the sickness bug had hit the kids. The day I was due to finish for my maternity I ended up having off as I was being sick and I… Continue reading 27th March

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Gone Too Soon

Not a day goes by That I don't think of youI'm always asking why This crazy world had to loseSuch a ray of light we never knowGone too soon Whenever I use the laptop to do some blogging I always find myself listening to the same songs. Sad songs. Ones that make me think about… Continue reading Gone Too Soon

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Saying Goodbye.

28th April 2015 Our final goodbyes. I don't know how we got to that day, the month after Jason's birthday seemed like a whirlwind and not for the reasons we wanted it to be.  Looking back I realise that we didn't know how to plan Jason's funeral and there was no-one to really offer any… Continue reading Saying Goodbye.

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7th October…

The first time we saw you. I'm the first to tell people I hate FaceBook. I created a new private account just so I could keep up with groups/pages I liked without being hit by unwanted posts or conversations with people. I have since reactivated my old fb account to plan Ellies 1st birthday and… Continue reading 7th October…

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October.

October is Down Syndrome Awareness Month and to me is pretty important. As you may know October is also Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month and for me, both go hand in hand. A year ago a documentary was shown on BBC Two called A World Without Down Syndrome, a documentary that I'd been dying… Continue reading October.

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Illness.

Babies, children and adults get ill. That is a fact that everyone knows but when you are parenting after baby loss, parenting through grief and trying to cope with your own emotions these illnesses can feel so much worse than they really are. Okay, I dont think that any parent hasnt dealt with a poorly… Continue reading Illness.

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Sleep Training…part 2

Thought I would write up an update on where we are. The last few weeks have been awful. Since returning from our break away sleep is been nonexistent for all of us. Ellie refused to nap in the day and was waking up every 2 hours at night. I was seriously losing it. Hubby isnt… Continue reading Sleep Training…part 2

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Photographs.

From the day Ellie was born me and my husband decided that we didn't want her pictures plastered all over the internet. This seemed like an easy decision with how horrible the world is and how easily things can be 'shared' to people you don't know and although we've been under a lot of scutiny… Continue reading Photographs.

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A Day Of Hope

August 19th in the babyloss community is A Day of Hope. Last year I wrote a post about what I hoped the following months and year would bring. I didnt feel hopeful, my hopes had been shattered when Jason died and I was struggling to feel anything other than anxiety about my growing Ellie belly… Continue reading A Day Of Hope

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Sleep Training.

I thought rather than go back over things I have written in the past (plenty of time for that I'm sure) I decided to focus on writing about our current sleep situation or lack of might I add. Our LO has never been a great sleeper and from day 1 has always preferred to settle… Continue reading Sleep Training.