I havent slept properly in weeks. E is 6 and half months and her sleep seems like a newborn again. She falls asleep well to start with but then shes up every 2 hours.
This morning she decided 2am was play time even though shes yawning, yesterday play time was at 3:30. She usually wakes up at 4 to have a cuddle and i can cope with that but right now I am exhausted. I know that babies dont sleep through the night, im fine with the night feeds but when you are woken up at least 5 times in the space of 7 hours it is tiring.
Add this to the fact that my husband seems to think im not coping because he only sees the night time tiredness, he doesnt see the fun we have in the day and he doesnt get why I am so tired because he wakes up too.
I want to be a better mum, I want to give Ellie all the things she deserves and I want to prove to everyone that I am coping and I am trying to be a good mum.
So right now we are downstairs because Ellie is keeping hubby awake which isnt fair when hes got work in a few hours. I am so worried that this is still going to be the case when im back at work. I am worried that when im back at work im going to be having less rest in the day and less sleep at night. Im worried that im a terrible mother because my 6 month old doesnt sleep well.
My 3am ramblings probably dont make any sense whatsoever.